What I’m thankful for May 26, 2011Posted by sunflower71 in about me, Life with 3 princesses, Uncategorized.
Tags: about me, feelings, motherhood, women's roles, working mum
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Busy mummies are not only that. Obviously. We are also women, wives, colleagues, sisters, daughters, friends, etc. And being human (I hate being apologetic here, but somehow when one becomes a mother, other roles tend to become secondary) we also get our full share of different emotions. Among which that pesky feeling of being ‘down’. Now when does a working mother of 3 little girls have time to feel down? But you know, sometimes it happens. The reasons could be various. For me usually it happens when I make comparisons. I know they are odious but I guess they are also part of human nature. This time the comparison was with my single younger colleagues. And I got a general feeling that I was born too early. I started missing the freedom to do as one pleases on the spur of the moment.
And then a friend notices my ‘face’ looks different and after a few days of seeing this ‘face’ asks me ”do you have something missing in your life? Why are you sad?”
The question shocked me. I wasn’t expecting it and anyway it took me some time to give myself an answer.
In reality what is missing in my life?
The things I listed are not worth mentioning here.
My friend then surprises further me by sending me this poem:
Die slowly by Pablo Neruda
He who becomes the slave of habit,
who follows the same routes every day,
who never change space,
who does not risk and change the color of his clothes,
who does not speak and does not experience,
He or she who shuns passion,
who prefers black on white,
dotting ones “i’s” rather than a of emotions,
the kind that make your eyes glimmer,
that turn a yawn into a smile,
that make the heart pound in the face of mistakes and feelings,
He or she who does not turn things topsy-turvy,
who is unhappy at work,
who does not risk certainty for uncertainty,
to thus follow a dream,
those who do not forego sound advice at least once in their lives,
He who does not travel,
who does not read,
who does not listen to music,
who does not find grace in himself,
she who does not find grace in herself,
He who slowly destroys his own self-esteem,
who does not allow himself to be helped,
who spends days on end complaining about his own bad luck,
about the rain that never stops,
He or she who abandon a project before starting it,
who fail to ask questions on subjects he doesn’t know,
he or she who don’t reply when they are asked something they do know,
Let’s try and avoid death in small doses,
reminding oneself that being alive requires an effort far greater than the simple fact of breathing.
Only a burning patience will lead to the attainment of a splendid happiness.
Then reality hits in and I realize I have nothing missing. Instead I have a lot to be very thankful for.
And this list is definately worth listing here. The order is not in order of importance. It would be too difficult to put an order….
I am healthy.
I have 3 beautiful, healthy girls.
I have a husband who loves me and is fully dedicated to our family.
We have two jobs, a house and food on the table.
It’s not a long list but it is a lot to be thankful for and enough to blow away any ‘down’ feelings.
Thank you for reading.